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I am a 29 year old teacher of fourth grade. My husband and I began TTC in March of 2008. We conceived our first month, but unfortunately it only ended in an early miscarriage. 8 months later we finally conceived again, and she was our take-home baby! Norah Jane was born on July 16, 2009. 7lbs 0oz 19" long and amazing. We recently had our sweet baby boy, Miles! He was born on June 12, 2013 at 3:37pm, weighing in at 8lbs 4oz, 20 inches long, and PERFECT! We are loving every minute of parenthood (even the frustrating minutes!). This blog is an attempt to chronicle the baby steps, foot steps, leaps, bounds, and milestones of this journey.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

I made it to 5 weeks!

Well, I've got another week milestone under my belt. Today I am 5 weeks 1 day, and I am so pregnant. I took another test today to make sure that nothing happened over the holiday at the cabin. Don't judge. ;) I figure I will test once a week until I see that ultrasound picture of my baby's heart beating away. I can't wait for that. Unfortunately, I am not sure when that is going to be. I am seeing the Nurse Practitioner on Dec. 17th, but I figure that's just going to be family history, blood draw for stuff and all that. I did ask the lady who gave me my second set of betas over the phone what their ultrasound schedule is. From what I understand, they are going to give me one before Christmas. That would be wonderful! So, I took a plus/minus test from Walmart, and I've never seen something so dark in my life. So I AM in fact still pregnant. :)

Our trip to the cabin was fabulous. I made most of thanksgiving dinner, and it was my best year yet. H had a great time, parents had a great time, oh... and we told them. :) They were very excited and very happy! They are nervously excited though, and I completely understand. My mom made me show her the picture of the pregnancy test I took for her to completely believe me. It was great though. It is nice to be able to share the secret. We are still keeping it a secret from everyday folks until at least after the ultrasound.

Now I don't know when to tell work. I am slightly nervous that they are not going to be happy for me, but really, I don't care. It is my leave, I'm taking it regardless. I just hope they don't decide to not hire me back for next school year. If they don't... I don't know what I'm going to do. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it. For now I am happy happy happy!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Double!

My numbers doubled!

225 at 16dpo to 486 at 18dpo!

I know they are not the highest numbers in the world, but they doubled, and that is all that matters! I am so happy!

We told my parents and family, and they are cautiously excited. I am praying for this baby to be with us at our next family reunion next year.

I'm still pregnant!

Double!

My numbers doubled!

225 at 16dpo to 486 at 18dpo!

I know they are not the highest numbers in the world, but they doubled, and that is all that matters! I am so happy!

We told my parents and family, and they are cautiously excited. I am praying for this baby to be with us at our next family reunion next year.

I'm still pregnant!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

225

Betas were 225. I have looked throughout the realms of the internet and most everything I have found says that that is a normal number to have. On beta base.com it actually says that the average is 189, so mine is technically higher than average. Unfortunately, I also found some things that said, "My beta was 1020 at 16dpo." "My beta was 659 at 16dpo." I even found one where the doc told the lady that her 230beta at 15dpo was low. But then I found women who had levels of 89 at 16dpo and are still pregnant 20 something weeks later.

I am trying to convince myself that 225 is a great number. I am on track with the pregnancy. I have another blood draw tomorrow, and unfortunately I will not get the results until Monday of next week because of the holiday. I should be 5 weeks and 2 days by then. I'm nervous, but

Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!

Come on High Betas!

Well, I had my blood drawn yesterday for my 1st beta, and they are supposed to call with the results today. The problem is that I don't know WHEN they are going to call. Morning? Afternoon? Evening? I am desperate to know the results. I want them so badly to be over 200. We'll see though. I took a $tree test this morning and it did show up nice and dark, so I am still pregnant. I just want to know that my pregnancy is viable and will continue.

When on earth will the worry end?? I'm guessing not until I am full-term.

So now I have a quandry.. do I tell the parents at Thanksgiving or not? I will only be 4 weeks 5 days on TG. We told them REALLY early last time, and H had to untell them two days later. It was devastating. We didn't even get to get confirmation from the doc or anything before I lost the baby. I'm thinking that if we have confirmation now with the betas, plus the 9 VERY positive pregnancy tests (I have pics of some of them), then they'll be excited.

Ahh! I don't know.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I'm still pregnant!



The retreat went well, but I tested as soon as I got home, which is the day after my missed period, and it is sooooooooooooo positive. It is starting to feel real! :) Beta's tomorrow!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Still anxious, but still pregnant.

I am anxiously waiting for this weekend to be over. I want to be officially late on my period. I am 13dpo today, and AF would be due tomorrow. I tested today again with a $tree test and the line was definitely there. It wasn't the darkest thing in the world, but I wouldn't call it faint at all! So far I've taken 6 pregnancy tests and they are all very positive. I can't wait until 13 weeks so that I'll be more calm.

My betas are being done on Monday and Wednesday. I'll be 16 and 18 dpo. I also have my first appt on Dec 17th. I'll be 7 weeks 3 days, so they SHOULD do an ultrasound, and we should get to see the baby/sac/heartbeat. This is going to be the longest wait ever.

I haven't started feeling sick or anything yet, and that is worrying me. I have a wave of nausea here and there, but nothing even enough to call nausea really. I bought some decaf tea and lemon drops just in case.

I'll update again when I'm back from the retreat. Pray for me please. I want this baby so badly.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Betas on Monday

Ok, so they can't do my beta draws until Monday, which kind of sucks, but it's ok. I'll be 16dpo by then, so hopefully it will be a nice high number. I'm hoping for the 500s or something.

I am so so so nervous. I have never not had a period, and this weekend I am due for mine. I am so so so scared that I will get it. I mean, my 2nd line on my test was much darker than yesterday, so I know I really AM pregnant... I just want to sleep through this weekend.

I've had some cramping going on, but I haven't had any spotting at all. I know that people say, "Oh, that's just your uterus stretching," but I don't know. That's what people told me when I was pg before, and I miscarried. I only got to experience pregnancy for three days.

Another thing I am nervous about is that I have NO symptoms. I'm not sick, I'm tired, but not crazy tired. I feel good. I don't want to feel good. I want to know that I am pregnant. I want this pregnancy to go full term and I want our baby out of it!

So... I will be out in the woods this weekend. Please pray for me. I need to come back with no period and no spotting.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

That's Right... BFP!!!!!






I could NOT be more excited!!! I can't believe this is happening to ME!!

In case you wanted to know, here is my bfp story.
This morning I woke up and took my temp... didn't go up a smidge... but it didn't go down either, it just stayed the same. I tested anyway. I was looking at the test for a minute with my crusty covered eyes since it was only 6am, and I saw my typical looking evap line beginning to appear. Although, I will say it was appearing slightly earlier than usual.

So I looked at it and saw that little something and I said outloud,"Gosh, if only that little line would stay instead of evaporate then we'd be good." I set it down and looked at it again about a minute later... I said, "Um, it's still there. Uh... ::staring harder:: um... it's still... holy crap, we may have something here!"

Then I pulled out the FRER. I dipped it in the pee, and waited... and waited... and waited. I looked at it two minutes later, and there was a faint, but definitely there line. My little pink second line. I was jumping up and down at this point.

I ran into the bedroom and said, "Baby! Baby!! Look! I think I might be pregnant!! I think I'm pregnant!!" He sat up groggily and said, "Huh? What? I.. are you sure?" I started rattling on about how I took two tests and that they were both positive and that even HE could see the second line and that I could see the second lines from a book's-length away. He was so confused, but excited. He is reserved because of the m/c a while ago. I had to go to work really soon after that and he sent me a text about an hour later that said, "I definitely see the lines!!!" (Since I kept the tests out in the bathroom for him to see.

I'm over the moon! I cannot wait until the blood draw... I'm trying to go tomorrow, but it might not be until Monday. Wish me luck and a sticky baby! :)

Oh, and the digital was taken tonight. I would post the FRER and $ tree, but the flash on my camera is making it impossible to see in a photo. Maybe if tomorrow's is darker I will post it. :)

OMG.

nft... until tomorrow. ;)

Monday, November 17, 2008

9dpo

Temp went up a measly .1 degrees. I was disappointed when I woke up...H was too. I was hoping it would shoot through the roof and just keep going up. We'll see what happens tomorrow. I also tested today with a bfn. There was my as-always light line on the $tree test, but it ALWAYS turns out to be an evap line. I know it is SUPER early, so I am not too upset about the bfn. It is just difficult not to be upset a little when many people on the boards are getting bfps at 9 dpo. I'm not too upset though, I promise.

We'll see what the next few days brings.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

8dpo

HUGE temp DROP. Stupid charting. I am trying not to get too upset yet because it is still early, but man, that really sucks to have my temp go from 98.0 to 97.2 in one day. Bleh.

In other news, H got paid for the first time today since he got that dream job of his. His paycheck doubled our income, and it was the most liberated I've felt in a LONG time. We can actually pay ALL of our bills on time with no problem. I feel so blessed right now. :)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

7dpo

I had a HUGE temp jump today! It is the highest I've ever had since I've been charting, and I was so excited when I woke up! I really hope this means I have a great chance of a bfp this month. I have some cramping going on today...it'd be nice if they were implantation cramps! :)

So H and I went to his grandmother's today and saw our niece and two nephews.... so cute. H's cousin was also there and she has a three month old. There were three babies under a year there. I wasn't sad or anything, mainly just excited to have it be my turn sometime in my life!

I haven't decided when I will test. I think I'm going to stick with 12dpo. We are going on a fall retreat on Friday, and Thursday will be 12dpo. I'm really hoping that I'll get a dark, no questions asked, bfp. I hate the speculation. Until then...

Friday, November 14, 2008

6 DPO

6 days until I can POAS. I am trying my hardest not to test until 12dpo, because I really really don't want to waste the FRERs I got off of ebay two weeks ago. I have 5 of them, and if I'm not pg this cycle then I want to save them for the next cycle.

Waiting sucks too. I have a lot to do next week, especially with a fall retreat NEXT weekend, so maybe I'll be distracted enough not to care. Right. I hope this is our month. I'd be due in August, which is the worst month for a teacher to take maternity leave, but I don't even care. I just want us to have our baby.

Look for an update in six days.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Of all the days...

Ok...slight update. So I was excited about the job on Wednesday night and Thursday. Friday I woke up with the most horrible case of food poisoning that lasted all weekend. It was the most miserable weekend of my life, and I hope to NEVER have to go through that again! But of all the two days of the month to not be able to temp in the morning-- Saturday and Sunday were the the two days I NEEDED! Oh well. I took an opk in the midst of me puking my guts out, and on Friday it was baaaaarely negative... so I assume Saturday was positive, so I manually put in my crosshairs. I even added two of my temps that had been so popular for the cycle, and now I'm pretty sure that I'm 5dpo. What sucks is that I can't be positive on my O date. My temps are def higher now than they were, so there was a clear thermal shift. Still sucks though. Time to wait!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

So exciting!

So... no baby yet, BUT my H got the job!!! Let me give you a bit of background... we left a VERY high paying job in another state to come to this state to find a youth ministry job. We left with no job prospects for either of us, and since then (July), we've been on the search. Since September, we've had a church interested in us, but the waiting game was killer! Last night, after a three hour meeting, we were offered the position!!!! My H is now a youth minister of a fairly large church! I'm so excited! Not only because we have finally gotten what we've been working towards and praying for, but also, we won't be just living off of my teaching salary! Woot!!! :)

In other news... after eight straight days of the same two temps over and over, I finally got a huge temp drop this morning. I am hoping that that is a pre-O drop! :) OPK results will follow.

I'm so happy!