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I am a 29 year old teacher of fourth grade. My husband and I began TTC in March of 2008. We conceived our first month, but unfortunately it only ended in an early miscarriage. 8 months later we finally conceived again, and she was our take-home baby! Norah Jane was born on July 16, 2009. 7lbs 0oz 19" long and amazing. We recently had our sweet baby boy, Miles! He was born on June 12, 2013 at 3:37pm, weighing in at 8lbs 4oz, 20 inches long, and PERFECT! We are loving every minute of parenthood (even the frustrating minutes!). This blog is an attempt to chronicle the baby steps, foot steps, leaps, bounds, and milestones of this journey.

Friday, December 21, 2012

"I felt it!"

I felt the baby kick today for the first time. It seems so early-- I'm only 15 weeks and 4 days, but I suppose that since this is my second baby, everything happens earlier. It was really cool though, and completely unmistakable. I thought I felt him/her a few days ago, but I really don't think I did. This time, it was so familiar that there's no way that wasn't the baby. I was sitting in a line on the road, waiting to turn onto the interstate, and *kick*, then *kick* again. I have felt it two or three times more since then. Really cool. :)

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

A scare.

First off, apologies for the long-absence. In my defense, I wrote a really long entry a week ago while I was on a plane. I saved it while I was on the plane (I wrote it in the Blogger app, not in blogger since there was no wi-fi), and of course, when I went to publish this LONG entry, all was lost, and never to be found again. Sigh. Very frustrating.

So, let me try to get caught up. This may be a bit out of order.

I went to my last appointment, which was on November 27th. I actually posted about that one because it was my NT scan, and it was awesome. Everything was cool with the baby. Then, like three or so days later, things were not so good. I woke up on Wednesday morning (so I guess it was the 5th of December), and I went to the restroom and there was blood-- lots of it. That was no good at all. I tried not to panic, but that's quite hard to do when there's that much blood during pregnancy. I went ahead and went to work (so I could get stuff together for a sub) considering my OBs office didn't even open until 8:30am.

I held it all together until I told my team at school what was going on, then I had a bit of a breakdown. At around 8:45, I ended up leaving school and heading home to get Daniel. I knew my doctor would give me an ultrasound, and I needed him there with me. It ended up that my doc couldn't get me in until 11:30am, which was very frustrating because now I was cramping, too. Cramping + bleeding is rarely a good sign.

We went in at 11:30, got called back for the ultrasound fairly quickly, and then I got really scared. When the image popped up on the screen, I saw no heartbeat at all. Finally, a few seconds later, the tech zoomed in to the chest area and we saw it-- beautifully beating-- thank goodness. I burst out crying and Daniel finally looked at the screen. I didn't realize how scared I was until I saw that heart beating.

So then we went to the 6th floor to my OB's office. I was called back quickly, and the first thing she said to me was, "So, did the tech tell you anything?" Immediately my happiness started to go to worry, and in a second I realized that I never heard the tech say everything was fine, I hadn't received my NT results back yet, I knew nothing except that my baby had a beating heart. I told her no, and she said, "Ok, well the baby is fine, but we found a few reasons for the bleeding." Could she have not LED with the fact that the baby was fine?! Sigh.. oh well.

Anyway, they found reasons for the bleeding-- it turns out that I have "Marginal Placenta Previa", which is where my placenta is not all the way up like it is supposed to be; it is actually covering about half of my cervix. This is not cause for too much concern right now because she thinks it will move up on it's own. They will recheck in 2 weeks to see if it has moved. They also found reason for the cramping. Apparently my corpus Luteum cyst, which is present on the ovary right after conception or something-- I don't know-- goes away on it's own quickly after the placenta forms. Well, mine didn't. It ruptured, which caused the cramping. The last thing they found was that I have low fluid-- again. I had low fluid with Norah, but I was 37 weeks when they discovered that. I was only 13 weeks at the time of this find, so it makes me worried. They will also check my fluid levels when I go back, until then, I'm on pelvic rest and I'm told to drink lots of water.

Speaking of going back to the doctor, Thursday is my ultrasound to recheck everything. I am looking forward to seeing the baby again, but I'm also nervous about it all. I want everything to be ok. I did get my NT results back this week. They are all within normal ranges!! Also, we got our results from Daniel's Cystic Fibrosis blood test back, and he is NOT a carrier! That makes me so happy since I AM a carrier of the CF gene. One less thing to worry about. :)

So, that was a terribly scary situation, but it ended up very well.

I am going to, at some point, post about the airplane disaster that Norah, my sisters and I experienced recently, but I have typed a lot already. Next post--hopefully. :)

Christmas break starts in 1 1/2 days!!!!!! I can't wait!

15w 1d

Monday, December 3, 2012

Pregnancy is a roller coaster.

Up and down. Up and down. Down, down, down. Up, down a little, up a tad, and DOWN. Pregnancy is a roller coaster sickness-wise. I am SO SO SO ready to be done with first trimester sickness crap. I feel great, then I feel awful, then I feel like I'm turning THE corner, then I realize that that was all a big joke and I'm throwing up all day again. Worth it though... so, so, so worth it.

Today I feel ok. I have had these really bad headaches, which I remember from last pregnancy with my DD. The headaches were awful in second tri. Thankfully though, tylenol seems to be working on them, which is crazy surprising to me since Tylenol has always acted like a useless placebo to me. I haven't felt too nauseated today though. I even skipped my Zofran this morning, and its almost noon and I haven't thrown up yet. Score! I am trying to cut back on Zofran because of the awful side effects. I'll just say this--- it's been 2 weeks. 2 solid weeks. ugh.

In happier news, I am 13 weeks today! That means that in 3 days, I will be in the 2nd trimester officially! I am excited about that. :)

How far along? 13 Weeks!! Baby is now the size of a peach. :)

Symptoms: Still nauseated here and there, LOTS of headaches, but the bloat is calming down slightly. 


Weight gain/loss: At my last appointment 2 weeks ago I had lost 6 total pounds, but I have a feeling I've gained a pound or 2 back. We'll see. 

Maternity clothes? Since the bloat has subsided a bit, I am having a hard time wearing any clothes, really. I am too poochy for regular jeans, and I'm too small for maternity pants. I mainly have to do the rubber band trick right now. 

Sleep: I am sleeping just fine, but I am waking up in the mornings with a headache. I think it's from my pillow. 


Food cravings/aversions: I think I'm officially back in the "Horrible aversion to chicken" realm. I had a HORRIBLE aversion to all types of chicken with Norah from 5 weeks to the day I delivered. This time I thought I had escaped it, but then Daniel made bbq chicken lettuce wraps the other night and I ate one bite and about threw up everywhere. Typing this out makes me want to vomit. 

 Movement? Nope, way too early. 

What I miss: Being able to function for a full day without feeling sick. Hopefully soon...

Best moment(s) this week: Seeing out amazing baby at the NT Scan bouncing around and head-banging. It was awesome. 

What I'm looking forward to: Going to Boston this weekend to see my grandmother for her 90th birthday. I'm a little nervous about that too, though. Flying during pregnancy has not always been my strong point in the past. 

Next Appointment: December 18th, but I'm going to try and get it changed to the 20th so I don't have to keep missing school. We'll see what they say. 

Milestones
Yay! It’s the last week of the first trimester and you did it. We’re not just talking about getting through those work meetings without falling asleep (or puking!), we’re talking about how you’ve completed one whole third of your pregnancy -- and the reputed toughest one at that. You’ve grown a fetus that has vocal cords, teeth and even fingerprints (wow!) and you probably kept this incredible news (mostly) secret while you constantly wished you could shout it from the rooftops -- or, at the very least, use it as an excuse for getting to work late. It’s about this time that many parents-to-be start spreading the word (to more people than just close family and friends) that there’s a baby on the way. But know that there are no hard and fast rules about when you should divulge your secret. It could be after your next prenatal doctor visit, once you start showing or at a big family event where everyone will be gathered. Or maybe everyone already knows! That’s totally your call.
your baby's the size of a peach!
She's about 2.9 inches long and weighs about .81 ounces, and -- proportion-wise -- her head's now about 1/3 the size of her body (remember? It used to be bigger!).

your baby at 13 weeks
  • Can you believe she's forming vocal cords and teeth?!
  • And even though she's still teeny, she already has fingerprints.
  • Her intestines are moving from the umbilical cord to their more permanent place, in her tummy.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Finally OUT!

No, not out of 1st trimester yet... I wish. Just 1 more week now, and I will be though. I am OUT to everyone. Out on Facebook, out at school (to the teachers and staff). Now I can breathe and let my belly/bloat hang out for all it's worth! No more sucking in! :)

We had our NT scan yesterday, which I posted about, then I went back to school for a faculty meeting. I went ahead and told everyone at the faculty meeting that we were expecting, and i'm not sure that there was anyone who was expecting that news from me. People seemed surprised.

Later, I got a shirt and some fabric paint from Michael's and made Norah a shirt that said, "Big Sister est. June 2013." I put it on her and had her hold up the ultrasound photos for a few pictures. I ended up getting 4 awesome shots, so I put them up in order. I will post the pictures later instead of explaining them. I put them on facebook and said, "A story told by Norah." People were shocked and so excited. It feels so nice to know that people are genuinely happy for us. :)

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

NT Scan! 12 weeks

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Today we had our NT Scan. I was so nervous going into the appointment. I tried to find the baby's heartbeat on my doppler last night, and I couldn't, which made me even more nervous for today's appointment. It was external (yay!!!), and when that first image came up on the screen, I was not in a happy place yet because I didn't see the heartbeat. Then, FINALLY, I saw it, and the tech measured it... 164bpm. :) From then on, it was a great appointment.

The tech was SO awesome. She was making me laugh so much (which had to make it difficult to get the measurements that she needed!), and she was laughing at all of Daniel's jokes. Example: "Oh, I know this video game.... Xbox makes it." (about the ultrasound/wand). The tech laughed so hard. It was great. She got great shots, gave us SEVEN pictures, and made sure we got to see everything. She even switched it over to 3D and 4D. Amazing, but also creepy. :)

The whole experience was great. The baby was jumping up and down, and opening his/her mouth over and over. He/she even clapped! It looked like he/she was performing in some sort of music video! I loved it. Loved, loved, loved it! :)

The baby is measuring 3 days ahead (12w 4d, but I am at 12w 1d), and it seems that everything is normal. The tech said that by the measurements, everything looked good, but we'll get the bloodwork back in a week.

I am so thankful for this baby! I just cannot believe how blessed I feel!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Am I turning THE corner??

I am almost afraid to write this post, in fear of "jinxing" it. BUT-- I haven't had my Zofran in 12 hours, and I feel fine. ::blank stare:: I know 12 hours doesn't sound like a lot, but I have not been able to miss a does of Zofran at all for the last 5 weeks. If I even went half an hour past the time I needed to take my dose, I would be vomiting or dry heaving. I hope, hope, hope I am turning the corner. We'll see.

On a completely unrelated note, I had egg nog for the first time in two years tonight. It was AMAZING! I said the words, "Egg Nog" to Daniel, then all of the sudden I wanted some. So... he went and got it for me. Because it is Thanksgiving Day (the real one, we did ours last Sunday), Wal-greens wasn't even open, so he went to Mapco and got it. I love him. :)

On an even more unrelated note, we started "Elf on a Shelf" with Norah tonight. She is SO into it. My dad got one on sale last Christmas and had it sent to us, but it was after Christmas (which is why it was on sale), so he hoped we'd use it this year. We read her the book, named the elf "Buddy", and explained the rules. She is so excited to wake up in the morning and find him. I can't wait to see her look for him each morning. :)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

11 Week appointment

I think from now on I want to schedule all of my appointments for 8:40 in the morning. I was in and out of there within 20 minutes. Awesome! I got weighed, where I lost another 4 pounds, making my weight gain -6lbs.. It really didn't surprise me that I lost so much weight. I haven't been able to hold much down in the last few weeks. After my weigh in and pee routine, my doctor took out the doppler. It took her a minute to find it, but then there it was! 176bpm! If I had to guess on heart rate alone, I'd be saying that Norah is getting a sister!

All in all a good appointment. I go on Tuesday for my ultrasound for the NT Scan, so that will be nice. Norah is SO sick right now. She woke up this morning, came into our room, and threw up all over the floor... poor baby. :( She is just pathetic. She's been throwing up all day long. Thankfully Daniel was able to stay home with her and take care of her. She's so sick. :(

Today starts my 5 day Thanksgiving break, and since we already did Thanksgiving, I really think it will feel like a break. :)

Monday, November 19, 2012

11 Weeks!

11 Weeks! Wow! I am sure I am going to say that every week now, but whatevs. The first 5 weeks of this pregnancy went by sooo slowly, but I feel like it is speeding up now! Only two weeks and three days left until the end of 1st trimeter!!

Thanksgiving was this week for us. My parents couldn't come into town on Thanksgiving, so they came up over this weekend instead. I, of course, cooked most everything, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. The only thing I didn't enjoy, however, was how pukey I felt the entire day. It really made the cooking more difficult. Either way, the food turned out great. Definitely the best turkey I've ever made, and the gravy was to die for... So yummy. I also made a caramel macchiato cheesecake. It was my first cheesecake ever that didn't crack. It was the most beautiful cheesecake ever. I can't wait to go home and have a slice!

How far along? 11 Weeks! The baby is now the size of a lime. :)

Symptoms: I am still feeling very nauseous if I don't take my Zofran, but I'm staying pretty on top of that. I have a cold right now that started last night, so the extra mucous is making me gag and throw up soo much more.


Weight gain/loss: I'm not sure. I have an appointment tomorrow, so I will see then. I really hope I didn't gain yet. If I did, I hope it's no more than 2 lbs. I don't want to gain too quickly.
Maternity clothes? Well, my bloat has gone down a tiny bit, so I'm not really able to wear my comfy maternity jeans anymore. They fall right off, which is really annoying. I am back to wearing only pre-pregnancy stuff, and probably will be until 15 weeks or so, maybe a little less.

Sleep: I am sleeping just fine!


Food cravings/aversions: Not too many aversions right now. I haven't been eating too much because of the nausea, and I certainly haven't felt myself reaching out for chicken, but it seems that I can tolerate it. I craved popsicles last week, so Daniel went and got me some. :)
Movement? Nope, way too early. Lots of gas movement though. :)

What I miss: Sushi-- I think I may need to get some non-raw fish sushi tonight. I also miss getting full. I can't eat too much which makes it to where I'm never fully satisfied. Oh well, FWP, right?
Best moment(s) this week: Hearing the heartbeat on the doppler after searching for what felt like forever. I also enjoyed heaing the placenta. It is such a neat sound.  
What I'm looking forward to: Seeing my baby on the ultrasound at the NT Scan on the 27th, and being out of 1st tri! I am also very much looking forward to telling the world so I can stop hiding it.  

Next Appointment: Tomorrow, then the 27th for my NT Scan!

Milestones:

Your baby, just over 1 1/2 inches long and about the size of a fig, is now almost fully formed. Her hands will soon open and close into fists, tiny tooth buds are beginning to appear under her gums, and some of her bones are beginning to harden.
She's already busy kicking and stretching, and her tiny movements are so effortless they look like water ballet. These movements will become more frequent as her body grows and becomes more developed and functional. You won't feel your baby's acrobatics for another month or two — nor will you notice the hiccupping that may be happening now that her diaphragm is forming.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

"I still love Technology, but not as much as you you see, but I still love technology, always and forever...."

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So technology is a great (and at times, a really bad) thing. There are many times that I want to just throw out all technology (of the modern variety) and say, "Screw it, let's go back to 1800 and start over." But today is not one of those days.

A few days ago I finally got up the nerve to order this:
AngelSounds Prenatal Monitor

I ordered it for the curiosity and the peace of mind between appointments. I have told myself that if I pick it up one day and don't heart the heartbeat, I am not to freak out (unless I'm past 28 weeks or so and also don't feel movement). So I got it in the mail two days ago. I decided to give it a whirl yesterday, and I thought I found the heartbeat, but I quickly realized that my baby's heartrate was not in the 70s. I determined that that had to be the placenta...very whoosh whoosh whoosh.

Today I tried again, and after many many tries, I finally was able to pick it up.... it was nothing short of amazing. That familiar sound that I haven't heard in over three years (since I was delivering my daughter)... I just love that sound. :) I really wish I had a digital display to show how fast it was beating. I got up to get my phone so I could time it, but I couldn't find the baby's heartbeat again. It was so, so low, and I had to press down pretty hard, so I just gave up.

I love technology today. :)

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

10 Weeks!

10 Weeks... that is a bit shocking to me. I'm not sure if I said this on here yet, but my sister is pregnant, too! She found out about 2 weeks after I found out with mine, and she's just 12 days behind me in due date! Crazy time for my parents in June!! Anyway, she had her first ultrasound today, and there was a beautiful little peanut growing well in there-- nice and healthy. I'm very excited for her and her husband.

I don't have too much to say today, so here's my first pregnancy survey:

How far along? 10 Weeks (Well, 10 weeks and 1 day)-- The baby is the size of a prune!

Symptoms: I am still feeling very nauseous if I don't take my Zofran, but I'm staying pretty on top of that. I am still feeling very tired a lot of the time.


Weight gain/loss: I'm not sure. At my last appt I was down 2 pounds, and I took my weight at home yesterday and it said I was down 3 more pounds, but who knows if my scale is accurate at all.
 
Maternity clothes? Every now and again I will put on some maternity jeans and they are amazing, but I really don't have that many maternity clothes right now. I am having such a hard time finding stuff that isn't a million dollars.

Sleep: I am sleeping just fine!


Food cravings/aversions: I have aversions to meat sometimes, particularly chicken. I had an EXTREME aversion to chicken the last pregnancy, and it lasted from 5 weeks to the day I delivered, but so far my chicken aversion has been here and there this time.

Craving salty then sweet a lot recently, but really, is that any different? :)



Movement? Nope, way too early. Lots of gas movement though. :)

What I miss: There's this one sushi that I love at this place called Ninki--- mmmm... it's topped with raw salmon though, so can't have that. I was also thinking today about hollindaise sauce, which I make a mean one and can't have it. Oh well.
Best moment(s) this week: Making it to 10 weeks. :) Also buying a $30 doppler (had great Amazon reviews) yesterday. We'll see if it works!
What I'm looking forward to: Seeing my baby on the ultrasound at the NT Scan on the 27th!

Next Appointment: Tuesday the 20th, I have an appointment at like 8:40am. Regular OB appointment, but I think she'll try the doppler (read: I hope she tries the doppler). I also have an appointment on the 27th for my NT Scan!

Milestones: Making it to 10 weeks, and baby is officially a fetus!

Friday, November 9, 2012

9 weeks 4 days

I couldn't think of a more creative title for this post, so I guess that'll have to do. :) So I am, in fact, 9 1/2 weeks along, which is crazy to me, but also disappointing at the same time. I feel like I JUST found out I was pregnant, like last week, but then again, I feel like I've been pregnant forever because of all of the symptoms. I am thinking that it must suck for teachers to get pregnant at the beginning of the summer. You are sick the entire time, time must go by so slowly, but then when you get back to school, you are still not out of first tri! Thankfully, I got pregnant early into going back to school.

I am still so excited about my due date... June 10th. It really is quite perfect for a teacher. We get out of school June 1st, and I'm due 9 days later. I would not be sad if he/she came out around the end of May though. Free maternity leave!

So I have a few appointments coming up. I had an appointment scheduled for November 15th, but then my principal told us all that we had to do a code 16 day (we're still in the building working, but we need a sub), that day to do a mass grading of these state-mandated test things. So I will be doing that that day instead of going to my appointment. I am not too disappointed though, because I thought that going to the doctor at 10weeks 3 days after I just went at 7 1/2 weeks was a little early. I wanted her to be able to try the doppler at my next appointment, so I wasn't disappointed when the appointment lady said that the next available was November 20th, when I'll be 11 weeks 1 day. I'll take it! I also called about my NT Scan. I am really nervous about that one this time around. I am just praying that our baby is healthy. But if not, we will, of course, love him/her just the same anyway. That appointment is going to be when I am 12 weeks 1 day. After that ultrasound, if everything is ok, I will announce to the Facebook world that we are expecting. I think I am going to tell the people at my work at our meeting right before Thanksgiving-- that should be after my appointment on the 20th, if not, I'll just tell them after we get back. I'm honestly in no rush.

That's about it for now. I am still on my Zofran. I function just fine when I take it, but if I don't... woah... so sick. Other than that and being really tired (like going to bed at 8:30 nearly every night last week), I am doing alright. :)

Sunday, November 4, 2012

8 Weeks!

Two whole months pregnant! Wahoo!

I need to blog.

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I need to blog. I really need to, but it is really hard. I am so not feeling up to it lately. I have been really, really sick, BUT I got a much-needed gift...Zofran. Ahhh, wonderful, glorious, Zofran... :) It worked almost instantly, and it has continued to work for the last week that I've had it. The only problem is it's one little side effect. I can't go to the bathroom. It took me 9 days to go, which was awful. This round i'm 2 days in, but I'm being a little more proactive about it, so hopefully it'll be better.

Anyway, so the nauseousness was awful, and still is if I skip a does of Zofran (like I did this evening and I am paying for it), but I have also not felt up to being on the computer because I had an awful migraine the other day, and it started while I was looking at Facebook. I am terrified that it is going to happen again, so I have been staying away from the computer. I haven't had a migraine in so long, that it really took me by surprise. I got it while I was at a red light by my school. Which meant that I had to drive 8 miles without being able to fully see. It was horrifying. Anyway, enough of that.

Pregnancy-wise I guess all is well. I don't really know. I haven't had much cramping and I haven't had any bleeding (thank goodness). I obviously haven't felt any movement, but my bloat is out.of.control. I look easily 14-16 weeks pregnant. I don't know if it is only bloat, or if it is bloat and muscle memory, but it is ridiculous. I am amazed no one has asked me if I am pregnant or not at school. I suppose I'll tell everyone right before Thanksgiving break. I'm looking forward to it, but I am not nearly as excited to tell as I was at Bellshire last time. I just don't have the relationship with all of these teachers like I did at Bellshire. Oh well... either way, I'm excited. :)

Norah is talking more and more about the baby, who she insists is a girl because, "I don't want a brother-- I want a sister." She told me tonight that she is going to help me take care of her. :) I just love my baby Norah. :)

That's about all I can write for now. My next appointment is November 13th? Maybe? lol... you'd think I'd know this off the top of my head, but I have just had SO much going on in my head lately, that I just can't remember everything. Anyway, the next appointment is just a regular OB appointment, but it is also when I'll be getting my NT scan, I think. We'll see.

Friday, October 26, 2012

A Surprise Ultrasound!

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Yesterday I had my first OB appointment of this pregnancy. I was excited to go, mostly because going to OB appointments means that all of this is "real" and that I didn't dream it up. :) I was also a little apprehesive about going. My last pregnancy, I didn't even have my first appointment with the midwife until I was 7w 4d along, then I came back 4 weeks later for my first OB appointment. This time, since I already had a midwife appointment a few days after I found out, they went ahead and scheduled me for 7w 3d as my appointment.

When my doctor came in, she looked very surprised to see me so early. I told her that I thought it was early, and she said, "Well, I guess that's because you found out so early this time." Oh well. The appointment was pretty uneventful. I got weighed (I'm down 2 pounds), I got my blood pressure done (eveything's cool), and I didn't have any protein in my urine. Wahoo!

I did tell my OB that I was cramping a bit and that I was concerned if everything was ok or not, especially since the previous ultrasound that I had had showed a heartbeat of only 105. So she allowed me to get another ultrasound, and they were able to do it that day! Yay!

So I went down to the ultrasound place and waited for about 15 minutes, then the lady called me back, and I got all prepped. When everything first showed up on the screen, I didn't even see a sac. I panicked a little, and the tech was just going on and on about something else entirely. I was terrified because I didn't see the sac. Finally, about 15-20 seconds later, she found it. It was a long 15-20 seconds, but not as long as the next 15-20 seconds. I saw the baby, but I didn't see the heart beating... I was even more panicked. The tech just said, "ooh, that baby is just in a weird position." Then she moved the wand around a bit, and I FINALLY saw the heartbeat. I was so relieved, but wasn't going to completely relax until I saw how fast it was. She measured it, and it was 154 bpm. :) Thank goodness everything is ok. I'm going to try and relax about this pregnancy a little bit. We'll see how that goes.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

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Pregnancy-- I remember talking to someone about it a few weeks ago like it was the best thing I've ever been through. I remember saying, "Pregnancy was so great for me! I loved being pregnant, and I can't wait to be pregnant again." HA! Apparently I didn't remember first tri at ALL when I was saying these phrases.

My morning sickness is, obviously, still sticking around. Today I have felt a little bit better than I have, but i've still thrown up three times (and it's only 1:20pm). It gets pretty bad at night, too. I have started to take a B6 vitamin for it. I read that if you take 25mg, three times a days, then it will help. I'm not sure if it is yet.

I'm officially 7 weeks (well, 7 weeks and 1 day), which is a nice little milestone. I got an ultrasound with Norah at 7 weeks 4 days, and I remember so much of what it looked like-- it actually looked like a little baby. I am just imagining that that's what this one looks like too.

Next appt: October 25th
Next milestone: 8 weeks (Monday)

Friday, October 19, 2012

Norah told daycare...lol

10/19/12 I walked in to pick up Norah from daycare today, and the director's daughter said, "So Norah has been telling us that you are expecting a baby!" Apparently Norah, out of the blue, told her teacher, "My mama has a baby in her belly and it is tiny and it is going to get bigger and bigger and bigger!" I confirmed it, because there was no hiding it at that point. Silly girl.

A post to remember how bad morning sickness is.

Let me start off by saying that I want to document as much as I can about this pregnancy, because by my plans, this is going to be our last child. I blogged a lot about my last pregnancy, but I realize that I forgot a lot of the stuff that isn't so great. Let me also say that I am beyond thankful and blessed by this pregnancy, and in no way would I trade it for anything. I just want this blog to be "real."

So... morning sickness. I read so many stories and blogs about women who never had morning sickness, or who had "a little twinge of nausea a few days ago." I'm so jealous. Like clockwork, my morning sickness began right at 6 weeks. I didn't know I was 6 weeks at the time. I thought I was 5w 5d, but then I had my u/s and it put the day of my m/s starting right at 6 weeks. It started off easy enough, just some waves of nausea a lot of the time, and the bloat was making it more noticeable. I felt like I had just gotten done eating a 7 course Romanian dinner all of the time. I would say that the bloat has gone down a bit but the morning sickness has reared it's ugly head. I am nauseous, like really  really nauseous from the second I wake up in the morning to the second I actually fall asleep in the bed at night. I dry heave constantly-- I have dry heaved almost everywhere I've been lately (school, home, church, the zoo). I have actually thrown up several times, but there's nothing to throw up. I can't eat.

When it comes to eating, I am not doing such a good job. The only real meal I get in each day is lunch. By the time lunch comes around, I have build my self up enough to force myself to eat. It is a pathetic meal that I eat, barely 1/3 of what I usually eat for lunch, but it is something. I can't remember the last time I ate dinner, and I certainly haven't had any breakfast. I had some crackers yesterday, and that helped for about a minute. At the zoo yesterday, I was able to eat a pretzel, and that helped for a little bit, too. The only thing that has done anything for me for this morning sickness is lemon water. Water with a LOT of lemon. I prefer fresh lemon, but I have had to settle a lot with bottled lemon juice. I ended up buying a quart of lemon juice from Walgreens yesterday and I keep it in my fridge at school.

So, that's about it. I haven't found a magical cure. I am going to ask my doctor on Thursday of next week at my appointment for some Zofran. I can't remember if it worked for me last time or not, but it is worth a shot. I need to eat. I know I've already lost at least 3, maybe 4 pounds in the last few days. I've got to eat.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Morning Sickness...

10/17/12 The morning sickness part of pregnancy may be my least favorite part. I am SO nauseous. The bad part is that I am at school, and it is impossible to scoot away to puke or when I'm feeling bad. I have had to just stop talking several times today just so that I could get through the sentence without getting sick. I bought a few things to keep at school just in case: Lemon drops (they seem to help), ginger ale (helping a little), and poptarts (I haven't been able to stomach one yet).

Morning sickness means that my little butter bean (as Crystal calls it) is doing well. I cannot wait to see him/her on the ultrasound again. I will be requesting an NT scan at my next appointment, which has to be performed between 11-13 weeks. My baby should look much more like a baby at that point. I can't wait!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Heartbeat!!!

10-16-12 Today was amazing. I had my first ultrasound today, and I was kind of frustrated that they scheduled it as early as they did. I was 5 weeks 6 days, and aside of a sac and a fetal pole, I didn't think we'd be able to see very much. When she put the wand where it was supposed to go, I was afraid to even look at the screen because I was so nervous that I wasn't going to see anything. The tech told me before hand that because it was so likely, that I shouldn't be discouraged if I didn't see anything. I told her that I was aware of that and that I didn't expect to see a heartbeat at all. 

But we DID see a heartbeat!! There is only one baby (thank goodness!!!), and inside the sac was a tiny little baby with an even tinier heartbeat. It was amazing. I will never stop being completely amazed by how God gave us the ability to take 2 single cells and form it into a human inside the mother's body. Incredible. :) 

The heart was beating at 105 beats a minute, which is a little slow, but the tech said that the heart likely started beating yesterday or even today. Crazy. Also, she measured the baby and it was measuring at 6 weeks 1 day, which puts my official due date on June 10th! I'm SO happy and relieved. I knew something had to be going on in there with all of this morning sickness! 

Me at 5 weeks and a few days-- bloat like crazy! 






Sunday, October 14, 2012

This is some fun times right here...

Oy. I am definitely feeling pregnant. I have a list of ever-growing symptoms:

Sore boobs
all-day nausea that I can tell is only going to get worse (thown up only once)
exhaustion
thirst
bloating and feeling like I just ate a thanksgiving dinner every minute of the day

I kind of forgot how "fun" first tri is. I will take it though. I cannot wait to meet my baby.

Things I am looking forward to this week:
My appointment on Tuesday-- I have the ultrasound and I am SO hoping to see the heartbeat.


Oh, while I'm at my appointment, Daniel has to get his blood drawn. It turns out that I am a carrier for Cystic Fribrosis. We are hoping and praying that Daniel is not a carrier. I cannot imagine the worry that is going to happen if Daniel is a carrier.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

5 Years

Today is my 5 year wedding anniversary! These last five years have been so full of joy, love, laughter, happiness, and so many other things that make us "us." I cannot imagine anyone in this world being a better fit for me-- Daniel is everything I ever dreamed of having in a husband, but didn't think I deserved. He has helped me strengthen my relationship with God, he has made me laugh every day since I've known him, and he is the most amazing father. I am so in love with him.


5 years ago today, I was just 24 years old. Daniel and I were set to graduate college in less than 2 months. We had only been together for 18 months-- but we loved each other. Really loved each other. And now, 5 years later, I am 29, we graduated college nearly 5 years ago, we've been together for 6 1/2 years, and our love has only gotten stronger and deeper. I love him.




Thursday, October 11, 2012

Life is good.

Life is good right now. I thought I'd take a moment to point out some of the goodness of life.


  • God's love-- no matter how imperfect I am, He loves me and always will.
  • The unconditional love of my husband. Similar to God, but on a much smaller scale. :) 
  • The unconditional love of my daughter-- it startles me sometimes how much she loves me. 
  • The smiles and laughter of my daughter. 
  • Norah's random, "Mama, I love you so, so big. Big like the ocean." 
  • Happy, successful efforts. :)
  • Our new house-- even with the repairs we have to make here and there.
  • Our furniture. We went a LONG time without buying any furniture, and just getting it hand-me-down. We finally decided to buy some furniture when we moved into our new house. Since we did, they gave us a $100 gift card, so today we went back and bought an arm chair for our sunroom. It looks fabulous and is so comfortable. :) 
  • Our families. I love my family, and I love Daniel's family so much. 

There's so much I am thankful for every day, but these are just as sampling. 

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

5 Weeks!

Week 5! A little mini-milestone for me. I still don't know if everything is a-ok in there, but I can only assume that it is. I have had cramping here and there, but no bleeding, and no spotting. I am praying that everything is good. I want this baby so, so badly. Less than a week until our ultrasound, then I will be able to see if everything is on track. 

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

It's gonna be a busy June!

After many days of speculation from early testing, my sister found out for SURE today that she is pregnant! We are going to be due within 10 days of each other! That's insane! I am so happy for her and her husband. This is her first and her husband's third. Everyone in the world put this sister in the "she's NEVER having kids" camp, but she recently decided that t

Monday, October 8, 2012

Say what?

October 8th
I was on the phone with the husband today, when the other line clicked in with another call. It was my OB's nurses line, so I decided to take the call. She was calling to tell me that they sent my urine sample to the lab after my last appointment, and apparently there were signs of bacteria-- like a UTI. So now I have to take antibiotics. What's weird is that I've had about 15-20 UTIs in my life and they are horrible. Like, kill-me-now, this is awful, I can't-- I just can't. Well, with this apparent uti, I feel nothing. I would never have guessed I had a uti, and it is even making me question whether or not the labs were right. So tomorrow I will pick up my antibiotic, and we'll see what they say at my next appointment.

Things are moving right along with the pregnancy (I hope). I am 4 weeks 5 days, so anything could happen still. I am praying every day for this baby. My symptoms are strange. I am still cramping like crazy. I keep telling myself that it is just my uterus stretching. I haven't had any spotting or bleeding, so I am hoping that that is a safe guess. I have not felt nauseous at all, but my morning sickness didn't kick in until around 6 weeks with Norah, so I am trying to enjoy life without morning sickness while I can. I am tired, but I am managing-- especially since I am on fall break this week. My worst symptom is probably my bloat. Holy cow, the bloat. I easily look 4 months pregnant right now. I am trying to hide it as best I can. I don't want anyone to know yet (unless I tell them).

That's it for now. The ultrasound to check for growth and heartbeat is a week from tomorrow. I think it will get here fairly fast, especially since I am on fall break. Breaks always tend to go by too quickly. :)

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Ouch.

Well, my boob soreness is back for now. One actually felt so hard and sore, it reminded me of having a clogged duct.

Another symptom I've been having is unquenchable thirst. I don't remember this with Norah, but it is crazy. My mouth feels like I haven't had liquid in hours all of the time.

I like the symptoms-- they keep me sane.

New reasons to worry and Milestones

October 6th
There's something wrong with me-- like in my head wrong. I cannot get myself out of the "I'm totally going to lose this baby" mindset. I am trying so hard to just enjoy it, but I just have these awful feelings every now and again that I am "empty" and that there's nothing growing in there. My main reason to worry right now is that for the past several days I've had an actual symptom. My boobs hurt like crazy bad. Then last night, boom. Nothing. They are hardly tender anymore. Which of course, in my mind is never good.

 Then, as I'm sitting here writing, I have cramping, which can be good, and can be bad. Ugh... I cannot wait for October 16th-- the only thing that is going to get me super excited about this pregnancy is that ultrasound.

I want to be so excited. I want to be bouncing off the walls excited. I guess I have just read too many horror stories about chemical pregnancies and miscarriages. I've got to stop reading those.

What I have been reading is my blog from when I was pregnant with Norah. It was so much easier back then to not worry so much. I celebrated mini-milestones, which I fully intend on doing this time too. Here's my list of mini-milestones:


  • Make it to missed period-- CHECK!
  • Make it to 5 weeks
  • Make it to ultrasound and see a heartbeat
  • Make it to 8 weeks
  • Make it to 13 weeks 3 days (End of first Tri)
  • Make it to 20 weeks (Anatomy scan)
  • Make it to 24 weeks (Viability)
  • Make it to 30 weeks
  • Make it to 37 weeks (Full term)
  • Make it through delivery
Obviously there are more milestones towards the beginning, but that's because the beginning is such an uncertain time. There's nothing that reminds you that baby is ok. As for me though, I've got to try and stay positive. So, here are some mantra:

Today I am pregnant, and I love my baby! 
I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise. 

Friday, October 5, 2012

Biding the time...

This pregnancy is going to be a long one if it keeps up at this pace. It is going by so slowly. I think it will pick up once I realize for good that the baby is ok, and that he/she has a heartbeat. October 16th I'll find out. I cannot wait. Although, I'm trying not to wish my time away too quickly, because Fall Break is this week, and I am SO excited to be off of school and just chill for a while.

Speaking of chill-- there's no chillin' when it comes to our kitchen problems. I went downstairs in our house a few days ago, and while I was down there I heard a drip. I knew instantly that that wasn't good. I looked up and there was water dripping from the ceiling. Thankfully I remembered on the way to school that we have a home warranty that we asked for when we bought the house. I called them and they sent someone out today. I think we only have to pay our deductible, which is $75, but I'm not 100% on that. I really hope that's all we have to pay.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

They Doubled!!

October 4th
I have to keep reminding myself that I found out about my pregnancy really early this time. I am fairly certain that I found out when I was 9 or 10 dpo. I got my betas at what I think was 12 dpo, maybe 13. Because of the earliness, my betas were not super high, but they were there!

First beta on October 1st @ 3:45pm = 100
Second beta on October 3rd @ 3:45pm= 215

That is a doubling time of 43.47 hours. :) :) :)

I am so excited that I can breathe for a minute! I have had some serious cramping over the last few days, so that's been disconcerting, but the numbers are helping me to feel better. Now I can start to worry about my first ultrasound, which is on October 16th @ 1:45pm!

SO happy today!!

Driving myself crazy.

October 3rd
I am driving myself crazy by doing something stupid-- I'm still testing every morning. Ridiculous. I enjoy seeing the BFP, and it offers me some reassurance when I am feeling less than pregnant. Unfortunately, with that assurance comes craziness. I over-analyze the darkness of the lines. Yesterday and the day before I had these lines that were getting progressively darker. Today my line was a shade lighter than it was the day before, which in my brain means that I'm losing the baby.

I am praying constantly that this baby is growing and developing right on track. I will be devastated if this baby isn't a take-home baby. I am so in love with it already, and I just want him/her to be here in June.

Betas from the first draw were supposed to be here yesterday, but the nurse couldn't find them, so she said she'd call me this morning.

Update: Nurse said that the betas from today were good, and that I am indeed pregnant. She also said that they can't tell much from the first numbers-- the numbers must double in 48 hours. I'm going to go get my blood drawn again today to get them checked. I should find out tomorrow if we still have a viable pregnancy on our hands-- or in our uterus.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

2 Things.... and 1st appointment!

#1) Daniel told people. I'm 4 weeks today, and I am nervous as crap, I haven't gotten my betas back, let alone getting two betas back or an ultrasound, and he told people. Oh, and by people I mean that he told 80 kids and 6 staff members at the center he works at. What the what?! I'm trying not to be upset, but it is difficult. I can't change it. I just have to hope and pray that they don't blab it to everyone, and that I won't have to untell anyone. I am so worried about miscarrying. :(

#2) I didn't get my betas back today. Blah. They were supposed to be back today, but because my appointment was so late, the nurse who gets those had already left for the day. She said that she would look for them and call me first thing in the morning.

My first appointment was today. It was rather uneventful. I asked her if we could skip the annual exam because I was too worried about miscarrying and that seeing spotting would freak me out a bit. She agreed readily. She also put me on pelvic rest until the ultrasound. Speaking of which, the ultrasound is in 2 weeks! October 16th. I will only be 6 weeks then, so I'm hoping that we'll see the sac and hopefully a baby with a heartbeat. I am so so so hopeful and praying.

So, I guess that's it for now.

Nervousness.

I am nervous about my betas. I am pretty sure that my period was due today or maybe tomorrow-- I can't be sure. There is NO sign of it, which there shouldn't be... considering I am pregnant and all. I am still just so nervous. I think I am going to get my beta results at my appointment this afternoon. I am curious, of course, as to what they are, but I can't put too much stock into them. It is the doubling that counts. If they come back at like 30 though, I'm going to cry. 30 for yesterday's level= no good.

At my appt today I will get my yearly exam, as well as a urine test and my weight. That will be my starting weight for the pregnancy. Hopefully it won't be too high. :|.

That's really all I can write about right now.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Beta is scheduled and the parents were told

My beta is scheduled for this afternoon around 3:45. I am super nervous about it. I am so worried that it will be low. After I worry about that, I am going to worry that it isn't doubling. I took another test this morning and it was only slightly darker than the previous day, if not the same shade. I prayed almost the whole way to work. I prayed that God would let me keep this baby and have it be healthy and happy. I am still praying that, and I will pray that until forever, I'm sure.

So this weekend, since my parents are in town, and also because I can't keep a secret to save my life, we went ahead and told them about the baby. We decided to do it by having Daniel say, "Hey, look at the card that Norah gave me." Then he showed them the card-- they read it and did exactly what he did. They said, "Awe... that's so cute! Wait, what?!!?!" Then my mom started screaming and jumping up and down. They were ecstatic. My dad couldn't stop hugging me. It was adorable.

My sister, Jessy's, reaction was my favorite. She was outside when everyone else found out, so we gave her the card to read. It was priceless. She had the same, "Awe, wait, WHAT?!" reaction, but it was the way her face instantly changed from happy to "WHAT THE?!" Lol... I loved it. So now they all know. It would be horrible to have to untell them if anything happened, but I really don't want to live in fear.

So I'm going for my beta today. I'll get the results tomorrow, then I'll go for a repeat on Wednesday and get the results on Thursday. So on Thursday we will find out if this is a (so far) viable pregnancy.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Telling the husband. :)


9/30/12
A poster on a website that I frequent said to have my DD make a card and me sign it, "Mommy, DD, and little peanut." Well, I didn't have time to make the card, so we stopped at the store on the way to the airport and grabbed a kid-type card that said, "It is impossible to tell you how much I love you, but if I had to I'd tell you with a million hugs!" I had DD draw a picture of our family on it, then draw an extra baby. Then my DD signed it, and I wrote from "Wife, DD, and Baby #2."

So we got to the airport and as I knew would happen, H wanted to give DD the present he got her while away. She loved it (Hello Kitty pillow toy), and I thought that since we were giving presents, it would be the perfect time to give him the card. So I told DD to say, "We have a present for you too, Daddy!" Then she gave him the card. 

He opened it, read what DD did and said, "Awe! Thanks baby!" Then he read the signature that I wrote. The looks: First confusion, then shock, then pure, pure joy and happiness! He said, "Wha-- really?? Are you pregnant? Really?! Oh my goodness, that's incredible!!" 
Of course I was crying when he looked up at me. Lots and lots of hugs and kisses followed. It was fantastic. :) 
 Sigh... it couldn't have gone better. I am so in love with my husband right now. :)




It wasn't a dream. :)

9-29-12
I was so afraid that I would take a FRER this morning and it would turn up negative, or lighter than yesterday, and that all of this would just be some sort of dream. I took the FRER this morning, and while it wasn't crazy dark yet, it was a shade darker than yesterday, and even the Wanfu decided to finally show up for the party.

So here's my predicament. Daniel comes home from Minnesota today, and I obviously am dying to tell him that I'm pregnant. Well, my parents are in town too, so I don't exactly know how to tell Daniel in a special way. I was going to show up at the airport with a shirt on Norah that said, "I'm going to be a big sister," but Daniel told me last night that another guy is picking him up at the airport. I really don't know what to do.

I also haven't figured out yet if I am going to tell the parents while they are here. I will ask Daniel what he thinks, but I honestly don't think that I can keep this a secret for very long. I can't wait to tell everyone!


Friday, September 28, 2012

Testing... 1, 2, 3...

9-28-12
Let me start off by saying, we all knew I wasn't going to wait until October 13th to test. :) That would have made me over two weeks late. Nice thought, but no. So I tested yesterday morning and it was as negative as negative could be. I tested last night and got an evaporation line. I don't know what DPO I am exactly, so I wasn't sure whether to count myself out or not. 

I tested this morning with one of my internet cheapies again (that's what I've been using every time I test), and I got another evaporation line. I thought it was strange though to get an evap line within the time limit. The evap line is so light, that you can't even see it in this picture: 






So, because I thought it was strange to have an evap line so soon within the time limit, I decided to take Norah to Target to pick up some First Response tests. I found the box in the back that had an extra test in it (Woot!), and I even remembered my $2 off coupon. So I got 3 tests for $6.99. Not bad for FRER! I also picked up a 2 pack of digitals just in case.

So we went home, and because I am a crazy TTCer (Trying to Conceive-er) I saved my first morning urine from when I tested this morning. I dipped the FRER in the same stuff that I used for the cheapie test. Well, as it was working, I looked up pictures on google of "Postive Wanfu (the cheapie brand) tests." I really couldn't find much, so I put my phone down. Then I picked up the FRER with the intention of squinting and turning it to try and see a line like I just knew I was going to have to. As soon as I picked it up, I said, "Oh my goodness! I'm pregnant!" The line was pretty stinking obvious!




Because the line was so clear, I busted out the digital. I couldn't stop smiling and saying outloud..."I'm pregnant, oh my goodness, I'm pregnant. Thank you God, I am pregnant." :)

The digital took FOREVER to work-- like a solid three minutes, but it popped up with the most beautiful word I've ever seen:





I am so, so happy! I cannot believe we got pregnant on our second cycle trying! It took us 9 months to conceive Norah. Thrilled isn't even a big enough word for how I am feeling. I haven't even had time to figure out my due date. I did take an OPK on my birthday (September 19th), and it was positive, so who knows, maybe I got pregnant on my birthday. :) 

I now know that I'm NEVER going to buy the Wandfu brand of pregnancy tests again. They are so cheap on ebay-- I think I paid $4.50 for 25 of them. I used the same urine for all three tests, and the Wanfu didn't detect pregnancy at all. If a digital can pick it up, then anything should be able to. Digitals are way less sensitive. 

Oh, I haven't told Daniel yet. :) I don't know how to yet. He is in Minnesota at a conference right now, and he will be back tomorrow morning. My parents are flying into town today, so I don't know if we will tell them this time, or have a little secret and wait until the next time we see them. I can't wait to tell Daniel. :)



Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Something is missing...

9-26-12
I've been thinking a lot about our second child lately. We, obviously, do not have this child yet, and I am not even pregnant yet (possibly, but I don't know), but regardless, he/she has been on my mind.

Norah is so wonderful-- I love her more than I could possibly put into words. I am "satisfied" with her, but there always seems like there's someone missing. When Norah, Daniel, and I are all together and hanging out, I always feel like there's someone else who is supposed to be there. I hope we meet him/her soon.


Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Crampy.

9-25-12
I have no idea what dpo I am, but i am Crampy. I know it is too early for pms cramps, so in hoping it is implantation cramps. Who knows? Waiting is so long, but I feel SO much more sane this cycle than last cycle.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Take that, idiot burglars!

If it weren't for the $1,000 hit that our savings account took and the total fear and anxiety that I still feel when I walk through the door by myself (in fear that I will see and feel what I did when the break-in happened), then I would almost thank the burglars who took our stuff... almost.

What makes me so giggly about their loot from us is this: we are simple, cheap people. We don't replace something, especially electronic, unless it is broken. So we had very outdated stuff. Here's a list of the big items we had taken and what we replaced them with:

  • 4 year old HP laptop-- it was nice, but the battery was shot, and the "new" one we got for it was the size of a brick and fell out all.the.time. Very frustrating. We replaced it with a brand new, 6GB RAM, 750GB storage, i5-3 processor Sony Vaio. SO much nicer than our old computer. In fact, I finally just finished setting it up, and I am typing from it right now. I think I really like it!
  • iPad 1st Generation-- I was so happy to buy an iPad for Daniel last Christmas. He really wanted one, but I really don't think that he expected to get one. I ended up buying one for him from my dad who wanted to upgrade his. So he got the iPad 1st generation. Keep in mind that this was before the iPad 3 was even in existence, so the iPad 1 wasn't the worst thing ever. We couldn't replace it with another iPad 1 (the insurance company told us that) because they don't sell them anymore, so we ended up replacing it with an iPad 2. We got a refurbished one from apple.com, but it looks incredible and has a one year warranty and everything. Pretty sweet.
  • PlayStation 3-- We bought it third-hand. My dad purchased it from a pawn shop, and we purchased it from my dad. It had a broken HDMI port because of some lightning thing, but otherwise it worked. This was a little difficult to replace because we couldn't decide whether or not to take advantage of the deal that Daniel found on Craigslist or not. He ended up doing it, and I think we got a great deal. He got an Xbox 360 (160GB, I think), 14 games, 2 controllers, wireless adapter, etc. for $250. Pretty sweet deal seeing as though the Xbox by itself is $299 in stores.
We are replacing some of the little stuff too: HDMI cables, iPad case, speakers, etc. But some of the stuff we may just keep the cash value on (like some of the PlayStation games). So we are getting there. The thing about it all is that they got NOTHING from us. I mean, they did get things, but nothing that it worth selling. I am guaranteeing that they had a hard time getting rid of that stuff. They looked everywhere for jewelry, too. I don't wear jewelry, so I didn't have any. :) The only nice jewelry I have is around my ring finger on my left hand, and I don't ever take it off. :) We didn't have any cash laying around (except for about $80 in ones and coins in Norah's jar, but they ended up having to leave it in the garage), we didn't have any high-end furnishings, and the TVs are mounted to the wall!.. they got very little from us, and that makes me happy. :)

So take that, burglars! Just because we have a nice house doesn't mean that we have brand new things! Oh, and just TRY and get through our new $855 garage door that is 2 inches thick, rolls on two tracks, seals all the way around, and is reinforced everywhere... then try to get through our alarm system that is on every door and has a motion detector!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Not doing anything.

I got so unbelievably stressed and hopeful last cycle that I decided that this cycle I would do nothing. I am not doing OPKs, I'm not having a set schedule to try to get knocked up, I'm not temping, I'm not doing anything. I was so frustrated by analyzing everything last cycle-- it was exhausting!

I don't even know what CD I am on right now. If I had to make a guess, I'd say 13 or 14, but I really don't know, and that makes me happy. What I would really like to do is test on our 5 year anniversary, which is October 13th. If I don't get AF by then, then it would be very likely that I am pregnant. Just by guessing, that would put me at about 21-23dpo, lol.

So that's it for TTC right now. I am still really excited and anxious to have another itty bitty, especially after my new nephew was just born a few days ago, but I am not anxious to go through the crazies like I did last cycle. It's only cycle #2... I don't need to stress yet.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Insurance frustrations

I am so frustrated. This break-in clean up is STILL going on. It happened on August 8th... that's over a month ago!
Here's what happened:
August 8th- Break-in happened, lots of stuff stolen, we filed the police report.
August 9th- I file the claim with the insurance company.
August 11th- We amended the police report to include our video camera.
August 14th- I was finally given all of the documents to fill out.
August 14th-29th- Got together the copies of receipts, serial numbers, prices, locations, pictures, etc.
August 30th- Got the updated police report, then filed all of the paperwork and sent over the pictures via email. **Was told it would take 5 business days to receive payment.**
August 31st-September 5th Twiddled thumbs.
September 6th- Emailed claims adjuster asking for an update. No response.
September 9th- Emailed claims adjuster again, asking for an update. No response.
September 11th- Called Claims adjuster and left a voicemail. No response. Then called a manager and he said that she would call me.

She called me around 5pm on September 11th. She says, "You never filed the paperwork." I said, "OH YES I DID." I told her that while I was on the phone with her manager, I double checked to make sure that I didn't forget to send it, or that it didn't go through or something.

She says, "Let me check to see if I accidentally deleted it..... oh, there it is. I located it."
::me fuming::
I say, "First, why did you delete it? Second, if you didn't hear a response from me for a month since the incident, why didn't you follow up? Third, the picture email that you said you got was titled 'Additional photos for the paperwork.' Additional means that they were extra, on top of the 19 pages that I sent you already. Fourth, Why didn't you respond to my emails or phone calls?!!"

She says... wait for it.

She says, "What do you want me to say? I'm sorry."

::explodes::

I say, "I'm not trying to get angry here, but I feel like I am SO LOW on your priority list right now. We have had a horrible accident happen in our family, and we just want it to be done."

She reponds with, "Well, I'm sorry. I'll have it rushed, and maybe we can get it by Thursday."


It's Thursday, and thankfully I had the outside company dude who values the items call me and I got to talk to him. I just emailed our claims adjuster for an update since the other guy said he would have something to her within an hour. No response yet, but it's only been 30 minutes.

I hope this is over soon, and I really hope they pay us out for everything we lost minus our deductible. Sigh...

Monday, September 10, 2012

First Sleepover at Our House

Amanda, my sister-in-law, is 3 days overdue with her second baby right now. She is miserable, and even more miserable because her doctor said that she could be induced on her due date, and then retracted that and said that she had to wait. Now, I am all for a baby cooking as long as he/she needs to, but I understand her frustration since she had been counting down to the day, only to have it revoked. She is scheduled to be induced tomorrow, so we'll see.

Anyway, because of all of this, I asked her if she wanted me to keep Kinley, my four year old niece, overnight on Friday so that she could have some alone time. She very gratefully accepted, and thus our 1st sleepover at our house was planned!

Norah was SO excited-- she asked every day leading up to the day, "How many more days until Kinley comes over?"

Kinley came over and they loved each other-- for about 10 minutes. lol... Actually, they really did have a whole lot of fun. I let them swim in the hot tub (without the heat on), they played outside a bit, they ate chicken nuggets, tater tots, and grapes (Norah ate the grapes and chicken, Kinley ate the tots...lol). Later, once it got dark, they played with the glowsticks I got them. They are really glow braclets. They are $1 for 15 at Target, so I got 4 packs= 60 glow braclets. They loved them. They put them in between the bricks in our sunroom, which looked really cool! They built things out of the sticks for about an hour. It was awesome.

Norah kept asking if it was time to go to bed yet, so after bath I let them get in bed. HA! Norah only wanted to have the "sleep" part of the sleepover. She wanted to lay down with Kinley and giggle all night. I had to go in a total of about 6 times. Kinley kept saying, "Hey, guess what? Norah won't let me sleep." Hilarious.

All in all they had a great time together. I just love them.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

CD 1

Today is cycle day 1. Moving onto cycle #2. I want SO badly to not obsess over TTC for this next cycle like I did for the 1st one. I spent way too much money on pregnancy tests, and I spent way too much time analyzing sticks. I was going to get a BBT for this next cycle to start charting, but then, won't that just be another thing for me to obsess over? I don't even want to use opks this cycle. I think I've got a good idea. If I haven't gotten my next period by our 5 year wedding anniversary (October 13th), then I'll test on that day.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

10 dpo

Started spotting today. I usually start spotting around this time every cycle, so I'm thinking that I'm out. Not sure what the sore boobs, and cramping and pulling were about, but it's enough that I won't ever look at them as a sign anymore.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Yes!!

I tested with fmu and got a nearly solid positive on my opk. I tested when I for home from work and I got a solid positive opk on both Wondfo and FRER.

I'm super excited because that means we're moving forward with this first cycle. If I don't get Pregnant this cycle, I am going to have to figure out how to not think about it 24/7.

9dpo

I am in SC now-- we drove through the night and arrived here around 3am. I got quite a bit of sleep on the way, which was nice. Norah did well on the drive, too. She slept from about 9pm onto 3 when we got here, then fell asleep with her Papa until 8am EST.

I was so excited to test when I woke up this morning. I actually PIAC so as not to have a repeat of yesterday. Nothing. Not even a hint of a line. So I guess that that "line" I saw two days ago was an evap line. I was quite disappointed. I know that I'm only 9dpo, and that I am technically not out yet, but I really thought I saw something the other day, so if I had seen something, then two days later there would definitely be something there. Not so much. :(

I'm not writing off this cycle yet, but I'm not hopeful at all. I think I am going to wait several days to test again so I don't have to go through all of this again. Plus, I'm in SC now and I've only got one test left.

Friday, August 31, 2012

SO frustrating.

So due to that ithinkitcouldbebutimnotsureandimnotgoingtogetexcited "line" that I saw on the FRER yesterday, I definitely tested this morning. I was very excited to, but also very anxious to. So I went ahead and busted out another FRER and---and--- AND?! Nothing. No line. No BFP, no control, no nothing. The dang thing was a DUD! And of course I didn't PIAC.... so-- frustrated as all get-out, I called FRER and they are sending me a refund for the entire box! $12! Wahoo!

The bad part of this scenario is that I have no idea if I am pregnant or not. I will test again tomorrow morning, but we are going to SC tonight to visit my parents. I was kind of hoping to not find out at their house (if I am).

Thursday, August 30, 2012

7 dpo and I did something shameful.

I cannot believe I did this--- I tested already. What's worse, is that I tested yesterday, too! I just like peeing on things apparently! Well, part of the reason is that I am not 100% sure of when I ovulated. Since I didn't chart this cycle, I am counting my O date as the day after I got my last positive opk. Anyway-- so I tested, and not even with FMU. My principal had me go to this professional development session this morning, and told us that we could have the rest of the day off. I was shocked, and so thankful! After I had lunch with the hubby, I came home to take care of the insurance documents for our house break in, and I decided to test.

Well...I don't know if this is going to turn out to be anything, but I think I see something. I took a FRER, and at first I didn't see anything, but then I thought I did. I keep going back and looking at it, and I can find the "line", but I am really not sure if it is anything to get excited about or not. I can't tell if it is pink or not. I can't tell anything, really, but I do see something.

I am, obviously, going to test again in the morning. If it is positive, I am going to try to hold it in for the whole day and tell Daniel while we're on our roadtrip to SC. I really hope this is it!

Monday, August 27, 2012

4 dpo

4 dpo brings nothing too new. I still have sore boobs, and if I am not pregnant, then I'm going to start wonder why on Earth they are hurting so badly. I'm having a little cramping and pulling still, but again, I may feel like an idiot when I get a stark white bfn in 10 days.

I am getting antsy about testing. I am so worried that it is going to be a BFN. I don't know why I feel like it *should* happen the 1st month that we are trying for #2, but I just do-- really, I just want it to so bady.

We'll see in 10 days.

Friday, August 24, 2012

I'm pretty sure we missed our window. :(

I'm so frustrated. Last night we had planned on not missing the window, then my husband starts saying that I don't show him that much attention when we aren't TTC. I got upset because he acted like he didn't even want to try, and I went to bed. I got a positive yesterday morning, so I'm pretty sure that yesterday was the time we needed to not miss. Sigh...

Thursday, August 23, 2012

New school year in a new school building.

Last year, in May, two days before school got out for the year, I received a text from a friend that said, "Omg! Why is ********* leaving?" I had no idea what she was talking about, so I immediately called her to find out. She told me that as she was leaving for the day, another teacher told her that she saw a press release in her email that listed our principal as the first principal of a new school that was opening up. I didn't think it was true until I opened my email and saw the same email.

People were really upset that we all found out that way, but it turns out that there was this HUGE miscommunication. The PR people were told to release it one day and the principal was told to not tell anyone until another day... it was crazy. Anyway, the next day, my principal asked me if I would join her at the new school. I almost immediately said yes. It was closer to my new house, it was BRAND NEW (I was at a 60 year old school at the time), and it seemed like a great opportunity.

So now here I am in the new school. We have had mucho growing pains, but overall, things are running as smoothly as they can. We still have a lot of materials that we don't have that we really need, but we are all making due. My principal seems like she's got a great handle on things, and I am still in the leadership roles that I want to be in. My classroom is big, bright, and beautiful-- I do wish I had a large classroom rug, though.

Anyway, that's all for now. :)

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Frustrated.

I STILL have not had an even close to being positive on my opks. I even went out and bought the expensive first response ones , and those are more negative than my wondfo cheapies. Crazy.

CD14

Monday, August 20, 2012

The goings on

I always seem to be frustrated with something. Right now I am frustrated with a few things.

#1 Insurance claims are way too difficult. Proving you owned something that got stolen is really frustrating when you don't have receipts.



# Ollie has to have repeat blood work today. There is something else wrong with him. I'm not sure what, but he does things like drinking water for 3 minutes straight, eating way more than he ever used to, and being in lots of pain still that are worrying us. I'm taking him today after school.


Norah is wonderful though. She started crying at 5:45 this morning and came into our room crying buckets and just saying, "Ollie..." We told her that he was right beside me and she wanted to pet him, so I don't know what that was about at all. I love her though... oh, I love her. She's been playing this game where she says, "That's it!" to me as I am walking away, then I run back and tickle her. She SQUEALS with laughter. :)

She is loving Scarlett more and more every time she sees her. Now that Scarlett is walking, they interact like crazy. They play with each other, share, draw together-- I love it. I have  a feeling that they are going to be lifelong friends. :)