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I am a 29 year old teacher of fourth grade. My husband and I began TTC in March of 2008. We conceived our first month, but unfortunately it only ended in an early miscarriage. 8 months later we finally conceived again, and she was our take-home baby! Norah Jane was born on July 16, 2009. 7lbs 0oz 19" long and amazing. We recently had our sweet baby boy, Miles! He was born on June 12, 2013 at 3:37pm, weighing in at 8lbs 4oz, 20 inches long, and PERFECT! We are loving every minute of parenthood (even the frustrating minutes!). This blog is an attempt to chronicle the baby steps, foot steps, leaps, bounds, and milestones of this journey.

Monday, August 26, 2013

My boy...

Oh, how I love this son of mine. :)

I don't have much time to write-- I'm exhausted, I was at school until nearly 5 today, and I didn't go to bed until after midnight. I'm also getting sick. Thanks bacteria-filled kids at school!

I wanted to share something that we did for Miles that had so much success:

Miles was being put to bed around 8:30-9pm each night. It worked for a bit. He'd wake back up at midnight, then 2, then every hour after. That was awful.
Then, all of the sudden, he had this nut-so witching hour. He would scream uncontrollably, and nothing we would do would help. It was awful. I tried everything, gripe water, baths, swaddling really tight, the swing, everything. Nothing worked.

I started reading on the internet that we should try backing up his bedtime since the witching hour is essentially just him being waaaay over-tired. I decided to give it a go.

Seriously. One night. That's how long it took to be successful. We backed up his bedtime until 6:45. He now sleeps from 6:45 to 1:37 (seriously, nearly every night at 1:37), then from 1:40-5:30ish, then I stay up for work, and he sleeps until about 7:30 when Daniel gets him ready for daycare. It's great! His first stretch is seriously nearly 7 hours!!

I love him though.. oh, how I love him. When I pick him up from daycare, he just falls into me. He stopped crying the second I took him from his daycare teacher. It was like he was saying, "Oh thank goodness, you're here!" He cuddles with me like crazy, and is just wonderful. My heart is SO full for him and Norah. It's true... your heart doesn't divide it's love for your second kid, it gets bigger to make more room. I love love love my kids.

Monday, August 19, 2013

I made it.

Today I went back to work, and somehow I made it..barely, but I made it. I was doing really well until about 1:20 when I got a migraine out of no where. My vision went away and everything. It was awful. I hated that that's the first impression that my students got from me, but hopefully the morning part of the day made up for it.

Miles must have known that I wouldn't be with him all day because he wanted to see me ALL night. It was ridiculous. I finally went to bed at midnight after getting everything together. He woke up at 1:20, 2:30, 4:35, and 5:30 to eat or be held...ugh. I was SO tired. He did sleep from 7:45pm-1:20am, so while that doesn't help me any, he got a pretty good stretch. I seriously don't know how I functioned all day. I was so exhausted. When I got home, Miles was asleep and Norah was playing and I fell asleep in like 10 seconds.

Things seemed to go ok with him at daycare. Daniel said that it was chaos getting him in there this morning. Apparently lots of kids were being dropped off and I hadn't filled out Miles' paperwork. In my defense, I had no idea he had paperwork. The director has known he was coming since I was pregnant. I see her three times a week at least and she never mentioned the paperwork. Oh well.
Anyway, my biggest fear all day was that he was going to refuse the bottle and just starve. He didn't! He ate 4oz three separate times today. :) YAY!

So now that the first day is out of the way, hopefully I can get into my groove pretty quickly. There's about to be an additional 4th grade teacher in our grade, so we will each be losing about 5 kids in our classes, which will be great. I have 26 right now, and 21 is a much more manageable number.

That's all for now. I'm so tired. I would not be surprised if I fell asleep before 9pm tonight.

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Maternity leave is over. :(

Tomorrow I have to leave my tiny little boy in the hands of someone I've only talked to a hand full of times. He will be going to daycare, and I will be going back to work. Sigh... I really hope I can handle this. He's just so little...

I am going to miss being at home with him so much. I'm going to miss his playtime on his piano mat, and his first nursing session of the day where he acts like he hasn't eaten in years. I'm going to miss picking him up and holding him anytime I want to during the day... I'm going to miss a lot.

I am also looking forward to a lot. Such as: getting to go to the bathroom without having to worry about him screaming, getting to eat my lunch during my 30 minute lunch block at school without having to worry about him crying, driving in the car by myself for 12 minutes there and 12 minutes back every day, and working-- using my brain during the day. Since being pregnant and having new(ish) mommy brain, I really can't wait to start exercising my brain a bit.

It's going to be hard tomorrow though. It was hard going back after Norah was born, too. I cried all the way to school. I, thankfully, don't have to drop him off at daycare though. I am so so so very thankful that Daniel does all of that in the morning. I hope I packed everything for him. I hope I remember everything for me. Ugh... tomorrow also starts that whole, "Pumping in the classroom" thing. Eck. I hate pumping at work.

Tomorrow is going to be tough. I'm going to try to get to the school by 6:45 to give me some time to adjust. I don't even know what I'm supposed to be teaching tomorrow. I'll make it though, hopefully. I just keep thinking, "What if they can't soothe him? What if he cries all day and I am not there for him? What if he won't take a bottle? What if he has trouble taking a nap?" Ugh... I'm getting myself all worked up. I'm just going to miss him. :(

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

What a great morning!

First off, Miles slept!!! Last night we put him to bed at 8pm. I went in and woke him up and dreamfed him at 11pm before I went to bed. HE DIDN'T WAKE UP UNTIL 4:20!!! I went in, fed him quietly, then he stayed asleep until I heard him cooing and talking in his bed at 7:20. :) :) :) He didn't even wake up crying! He woke up happy! :) I jumped out of bed like I'd had more sleep in ages and got my cuddly, happy boy. He just smiled and cooed and talked to me like he was telling me all about his night. :)

After I got Norah off to school, I put him down for his morning nap, and I set up my dreaded pumping session. Because of this cut off nipple that I wrote about in my last post, I've been dreading pumping because it's nothing but a bunch of blood. Well today I pumped really really slowly. And guess what?! 5 oz of MILK!! JUST MILK!!! :) :) :) So happy! It's still a little sore and painful, but the fact that I didn't pump blood this morning just made my already great morning even better! :)

AND I got to have coffee this morning! :)

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

The worst breastfeeding experience ever.

I really, really want to breastfeed until at least 6 months. This week I hit a HUGE road block.

So, I got a milk blister when LO was 3 weeks old. I thought it would go away on it's own... it didn't. After 4 weeks of excruciating latch and radiating pain after nursing (it wasn't thrush) , and trying everything the internet said to do, I decided to go see a LC. I went and saw her, and she said it was one of the worst she's ever seen. She recommended that I see my OB to have it drained with a needle. 

I go to my OB yesterday and the nurse practitioner had to see me since my OB wasn't there. She decided that the best course of action was to lance it off. 

She cut off part of my nipple. 

After she did it, she told me that in 15 years she had never seen this before. Wait, what? You've never done this before and you just cut off my nipple?!!

I pumped before I went to bed and it was 7oz of mostly blood and a little milk. So much blood that I nearly passed out. H had to hold me up. 

I asked her before she did it if she was sure I'd still be able to nurse. She said, "Oh yeah, definitely!" 

Guess what, kids? I can't nurse on that side at all. I tried to nurse this morning. LO took two sucks and pulled away with a mouth covered in blood. 

I went back to the OB today because I was sobbing buckets not knowing what to do, especially after I pumped almost all blood again this morning. My regular OB saw me and didn't know what else to do. She seemed really annoyed that the nurse practitioner did this without really knowing what to do. So she said that we need to try to let it heal, so pump only when necessary (which I will at least 2 times a day to hopefully keep some supply). If it doesn't start to get better in a few days, I have to go see a breast specialist. 


I'm so worried that I won't be able to continue breastfeeding. I don't want to give it up at all. That's why I went through this whole crap in the first place, so I could continue breastfeeding! I'm so angry and frustrated at the NP. I'm mad at myself for allowing her to do it. It sucks. I can still nurse on my left, but it's always been my least producing side.  Hopefully my freezer stash will last through the healing. 

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Reminder of things to write about...

When I have time, I have to write about two things:

1) Miles being milk protein intolerant which is causing me to go dairy free. I am hoping beyond hoping that he doesn't have anymore allergies than that. It is hard enough to go dairy free-- I read about doing the Total Elmination Diet, and it sounds MISERABLE.

2) my visit with the Lactation Consultant today. I have a milk blister that's been there for 4 weeks now, and it is making breastfeeding really difficult.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Norah's 4 year appointment, Miles, and other things happening.

Miles is officially 7 weeks old now. As I stated before, the boy doesn't sleep at night! Daniel did something wonderful for me last night though. I put Miles to bed at 8:15, and then around 10:30 I pumped and gave a bottle to Daniel. He fed Miles when he woke up at 1:00am! (That means he slept nearly 5 hours!), then stayed up until he woke up again at 3am and brought him to me to feed. I had gone to bed at 11, so I got FOUR consecutive hours of sleep! It was great!

Here's Miles in his Major League Burnell shirt that my brother-in-law made for him. Adorable.

His favorite toy ever! The Kick and Play piano. He LOVES this thing! He will just kick and kick and kick! I had no clue a 7 week old would love a toy so much.

Totally off topic, but here's Norah's play area all organized! Target had these cubical things on sale for the back-to-school crowd, and I bought one at 50% off! It has done wonders for my sanity about this area! It's no longer a mess!

Another off topic picture-- we were at Sonic yesterday and this guy pulled in next to us. I could not believe he even attempted to do this!

We had Norah's 4 Year appointment yesterday, and it went so well. She is still super short (25%), and she's dead on average for her weight. She blew her doctor away with her smarts, which was awesome. :)

Her doctor said to her, "Now Norah, when I see you at your 5 year old appointment next year, I want you to know your phone number..."

Norah rattled off my phone number like it was nothing. :)

Then she said, "Oh! Ok! Well, I want you to know your address."

Norah rattled off the address. :)

She said, "Wow! You are too smart! When you come back, I want you to be able to write the letter N!"

I looked at her and said, "N? Really??"

She said, "She can already write her name, can't she?"

I said, "She can write way more than that. She already knows a bunch of sight words, too." :)

Her doctor replied, "You're a teacher! I just can't keep up!"

Now, there were two things on the 5 year old check list that Norah couldn't do yet-- tying her shoes and skipping. Oh, the skipping. She thinks she can skip, and it is hilarious to watch her try!

My big kid... :)

And then here is Miles in the most TRUE shirt ever!

These next three pictures are Norah's iPhone picture-taking skills. I was mildly impressed!

Mother of the Year right there... Miles crying while I'm just a smiling away. Ridiculous.

This one is my favorite. :)

Here's a conversation that Norah and I had tonight:

Me- "Norah, Ollie isn't going to follow you, honey." 
Norah- "I know. He's kind of ridiculous. We need a new pet. Like a dinosaur."